Saturday, December 7, 2019
Reflecting...
posted by [raawwWRRR.chubbylicious] at 3:12 AM
I'm trying but it's so hard! In reality I'm hurting so much inside and it may seem like I'm fine and dandy on the outside. I'm crumbling...
Do I set myself up? How does this always happen? Am I not opening my eyes wide enough? Why am I like this? I'm always giving 2000% but in return... I reckon if I were a boy I would be the perfect boyfriend haha
Why are there so many factors that need to stand in the way? This is torture. I don't know how long I can go on like this. It's already driving me crazy. Last time this happened there wasn't a great outcome... I don't know if I should step back... Would that be the best for everyone? Will i be hurting more people? Frankly, I don't think they'll even know.
Sorry, this post has been a bit ambiguous...
Friday, October 2, 2015
400th post!!!! :O
posted by [raawwWRRR.chubbylicious] at 12:04 AM
hmm I've been thinking lately... just seeing patients whether really elderly or newborns coming into work and then there is me.. The elderly are so fragile, endless medical conditions that needs to be reviewed and the newborns have absolutely no idea what they've been born into. They are just taken into the treatment room to feel their first instance of pain and then they let out their cry resonating through the walls of our practice. At one stage in my life I was that baby except I would watch the needle go in and then being the slow person that I am and realising that there was pain like 5 minutes after the needle has been taken out only then did I start to cry.. As the year is drawing to a close and the months pass, just around the corner it's my birthday.. not that it is a very significant day but I will be turning 23 the BIG 2 3.. ><" this begs the question if i were to live to 100 I would have almost lived a quarter of my life already and what have I done in these 23 years.. i have just been studying and in the later years working a bit on top of studying..If I am following my so called
"timeline" that I have set for myself it would mean I would hopefully be married between 24-26 but that isn't my main concern.. but it seems that life is so so short, in the blink of an eye I will have aged considerably.. So we must increasingly treasure every moment no matter how significant or insignificant a day may be... every day counts here on earth and the people who are in your life definitely contributes to make a difference :)
Just several days ago I had several Uni friends over despite only being a small group at first which turned out to be a fairly medium sized group hangout. We played board games and card games which we don't normally do. They chose to do something I enjoyed doing and something other than 'just eating out'. What I treasure the most is the time spent with these hooligans haha jks very close friends of mine whom I treasure dearly and I can't think of what the future might hold when we are all working full time or when we have our own families... T_T Can't imagine meeting everyone like maybe once every 6 months instead of the regular contact that we have now.. just really dread that time as this period is also drawing near... :S I suppose we can hang out with each of our own families and have a huge gathering but the atmosphere will not be the same... :(
Tuesday, June 9, 2015
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posted by [raawwWRRR.chubbylicious] at 12:08 AM
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Sunday, May 31, 2015
Work
posted by [raawwWRRR.chubbylicious] at 1:45 AM
So today i had work at both of my workplaces.
when i arrived at my first workplace my colleagues left a message saying i had to sign a birthday card for my boss. Oh my! It was quite difficult writing a piece without coming across as creepy haha not that i wanted to be creepy ><" but eventually wrote a nive message which i hope he likes.
At my second workplace for some reason many people were chatty today 😊😊 they just for some reason talked more than usual or maybe it was just those whom i am close to and i haven't seen them in a month or so. Some people thought i quit/ i died... lol everyone kept asking my colleague whom i shall call "J" but she didn't know where i was cause we never exchanged numbers and i guess they assumed we were friends cause we were asian or something.. :S anywho it felt nice that people actually noticed that i hadn't been at work for quite some time and they cared or they were just busy nosy people hahaa
Another colleague kept blocking my way and even tripped me PURPOSEFULLY!!GEEZ LOUISE!! 😒😒😒 Not cool!!! Luckily i didn't stack it 😛😛 and even tried to squeeze me between the two 'cages' that we use at work 😢😢😢😢 but i have survived yet another week😊😊
Friday, May 8, 2015
"best week ever"
posted by [raawwWRRR.chubbylicious] at 1:40 AM
Haha this is what you said to me that day we had dinner together.. Reason being is because i got to see both of your faces for 3 times in the last week and that i should feel honoured 😉😉 since i don't get to meet up with you guys often and you knew i was a little sad about that... But the fact that you noticed or remembered from when i casually mentioned it.. Spot on!! Great to see you not focusing on uni but building on your relationships and friendships 😊😊😊 because that is something that i will always treasure above everything else and regard highly in my life. 😛😛 and if you can't handle it then... I suppose it's quits for you haha jks just do whatever you fancy and whatever suits your lifestyle at the moment ☺ i love how every outing even though we may eat at the same restaurant but there will always be a different adventure in front of us hahaa everytime is a blast i miss it till the next time we hang 😉😉 i can hang out with you guys and forget the world hehee thank you for always being there for me whether it was the bad or the good.. They all are important and all are significant and memorable😊😊😊 so thank you once againn and may we continue having many adventures ahead of us till we are old and wrinkly 😛😛😛 let us plan our december trip soon and you better come j!!!! Noo excuses!!? 😜😜😝😝😝
I remember the time you caught your shoe on the elevator and it somehow ripped a hole in your shoe and your pinky toe was showing and you were just wriggling it... I couldn't stop laughing omgoshh my tummy :( and tears almost came out.
Or that time where you got scared by a droplet of water that landed on your bag..
Or that time you did an action with your two hands and you were totally embarrassed when others noticed what you did and that was not the message you wanted to carry across 😧😧
Or that time we said you have a 30+ year old gf bahahaa
Or that time where we met a few of your sunday school kids who started saying i'm gonna tell so and soo j has a gf oohhh ~~
They just keep building And building.... 😛😛😛
Bring in the camerass let them continue to roll. 😝😝😝
Life....
posted by [raawwWRRR.chubbylicious] at 1:21 AM
Today just really hasn't been my day... But it has definitely not been my worse day either at the same time... I have had far worse... Anyway i finished uni and because the classes changed over for second half of semester i now have 3 hours break on thursday. In these 3 i was planning to start my assignment due next week as i don't have much time left.. :( but then as soon as i turned my laptop on there was a blue screen.. And it wasn't even the blue screen of death.. Then it changed over to a samsung galaxy recovery screen....i panicked what is happening?!??!? I have lost everything on my laptop and i needed the stuff already on my laptop T_T.. But i somehow was able to restart it normally and start working on my assignment.
Soon after i was faced with a disappointing scenario.. Where pre arranged plans were made and confirmed but because i had not reconfirmed or talked to that person about that issue again she had made other plans.. And she even assumed that i had other plans..i apologised for not reconfirming our date...
#1. If you know me... You would know i will keep my word unless i couldn't keep my promise then i will say no.. I never go back on my word and if i had plans i would have notified you way before our date so that you can reorganise your day or whatever.....
#2. I just absolutely hate this when this happens also when you made the plans a while ago but then people cancel on you last minute... Its like taking your hopes up on a highh then plunging it into the depths of the sea... It's just not a good feeling.. Happens to me way too much...
Anyway aside from those i was able to have a absolute turn around of events near the end of the day 😊 i had my night shift and today there were only 3 of us doing like a 10 man job... Dunno how the manager did the shifts.. Anyway we managef to get everything done early and get a mini early mark hehe and a bottle of water which i was really craving for because i was heaps thirsty but i didn't hVe any money or anything on me 😢
But wait... That wasn't the highlight of my day haha whilst i was working i recieved a surprise visit from a friend who had just finished work and they also happened to be working in the same suburb haha 😛😛 lol at first i was like that customer must be lost... Oh wait a minute double take i recognise that uniform that face.. Is it??..!could it be??? OMG no way!!!! 🙌🙌🙌 after a crappy day it was really good to have company even if it was just a little while.. I really wanted to just downwind today somewhere... Get my mind off things.. Just be separate from this world... But mmm nope continue my daily grind..
Anyway continuing on... After a while whilst ripping a box i ripped a nail open.... And it started to bleed and my friend who was stalking me bahaha jks came into my aisle and i asked if they had a band aid but they didn't and they went to go buy one sighh... Even though i said it's fine i was gonna tank it... And they bought a kids bandaid and one of the most brightest colour you can imagine (bright pink) hahaa but i'm still grateful for the bandaid because it meant i wouldn't be able to rip it further and germs won't go on the products :S. So thank you very muchhh for everything today 😊😊😊. Whether it was being encouraging to being physically there in front of me hahaa they all mean a lot 😄😄😄 and hope you feel.honoured you are featured in this blog post which i know you will be reading lool 😛😛😛😛😝😝😝😝
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
Promises....
posted by [raawwWRRR.chubbylicious] at 12:01 AM
Are always broken... :'( why make them if you can't keep your word?..